I’ve made it through yet another week of school, and to my surprise, things are still going very well. I’ve gotten a bunch of work done that I assumed I wouldn’t be able to, and my classes don’t seem like they’re going to be all that bad. Of course things always get harder as the semester goes on, but I’m pretty much determined to tackle anything that comes my way. It’s like my mind is set on the prize (graduation) and nothing is going to stop me from getting there.

While not having a roommate this semester is ultimately a good thing, it is also somewhat of a bad thing too. I don’t have to worry about coming in late at night and waking her up or annoying her by having people over. But I also do feel more lonely without someone here. My last roommate and I never really spoke a lot, but there was still someone here. I wasn’t in the room all by myself so much. It’s a blessing and a curse all at the same time. It gives me and Michael more time to spend together away from everyone else, but I still wish sometimes that there was someone else here.

I’m trying this new thing where I’m going to ignore 90% of everything and everyone on the Internet. I’m sick of feeling upset when people who have never met me in real life (and thus know virtually nothing about me) decide that I’m some horrible person based on 1/2 of a story they’ve heard from someone. I’m sick of people assuming that everything I do or say is about them, or done intentionally to provoke them. I’m sick of having to censor myself in fear of what happened last year when someone decided to take a simple rant way too far. I’m sick of the constant hatred and drama that is splattered all over most of the websites I regularly visit (not blogs in general – stuff like message boards and public locations [YouTube comments anyone?]). I’m sick of having to wade through all the stupid just to find something worthwhile. This is the Internet dammit; my supposed escape. It’s not supposed to be more stressful than real life.

Speaking of stress levels, mine have gone down slightly since before coming back to school. I was re-reading a few of the posts that I did there in those last couple weeks, and I can’t believe I had sunk that low. I’m not going to pretend I’m all better now, and that everything is fine and dandy because it isn’t. But I am doing much better.I think coming back to school gave me some perspective on a few of the things I was so worried and upset about. But there are still a few things that keep nagging at the back of my mind. I’ve tried talking to a few people about them, but I think sometimes people tend to forget that they’re not the only ones who have problems, since most of them end up turning the conversation onto their own problems shortly after it is started.

Another tidbit on the topic of health: Michael and I had a bit of a scavenger hunt Wednesday night at Giant. We went in for the normal groceries, but ended up deciding only to buy healthy stuff. We went around the whole store trying to find the things we want in the “Natures Promise” brand, which everything made by them is USDA Certified Organic. We did get some non-organic stuff such as Healthy Choice meals and such, but generally everything was organic/moderately healthy. We actually ended up getting quite a few things. The nice part is most of it was on sale and therefore didn’t cost any more than the normal stuff we would buy. So far I’m happy with the stuff we got, it all tastes good. One non NP thing I got that was still organic was some non-dairy orange cream ice cream. It’s made with rice instead, and while not quite as flavorful as normal ice cream, I like it. Now I just need to try the NP oatmeal and ranch dressing, and I’ll be able to report on whether or not our hour in the grocery store was a complete success or not.

I would blog some more, but it’s nearly 3:30am and I really need to get to bed. I didn’t intend on staying up so late, since I actually am really tired. I just got sidetracked a bit and ended up deciding to blog tonight before I hit the sack. Look forward to more posts soon and some pictures to go with them. Since John got a kick out of me telling him I had two monitors (my laptop one and an external) I decided I’d take a picture of them for him. That led to me taking pictures of some other parts of my room too. Once I clean I can take the rest of the pictures and do a whole room tour (and I’m planning on doing another ‘day in the life’ here soon). So yeah, there are many things to come.

I need a new layout for this place… I really hate the one I have now.